Stumbling

Why does it always feel like when you start drawing close to God, the devil comes in and starts filling your mind with doubts and you start losing trust and faith in the Lord? You know that this is how the devil works, he doesn't want you to draw near to God... so please stop letting him come in and sway your faith. You need to stand firm and not be moved by anything other than the One that created you and wants to use you for His glory. Stand Firm, I say. I can't stand to see you start picking yourself up off the ground, and as soon as you seem to get your footing, you try to find God and call on Him, then you just take of sprinting.. away from Him. He wants to use you... so stop for just a moment and allow Him to do His work in you! You know when things get tough, God is working. If things are easy.. then you should check yourself because the devil doesn’t want anything to do with a lukewarm Christian or a non-believer. You must learn to accept His blessings. Ask and you shall receive. Right? So receive with appreciation and thanks. Give thanks to God Almighty, not only has He saved your soul from condemnation and hell, He blesses you DAILY! Just try to see His blessings, no matter how large or small they may be, be thankful and I promise you.. He will continue to provide all of your needs. He loves you. The same way you love and provide for our daughter, His love for us is even more than that and He wants you to be happy, but more than anything, He wants you to know that He is God, and He is in control. So let Him be in control of your heart and mind and stop trying to do things on your own without Him. You know that nothing will ever work out if it’s not of God. Just sit back and let Him work. It’s simple. Don’t make it harder than it should be. Pray, read His word, seek His face, and I promise, you will find all that you are looking for. He promises you that!
I will always be by your side through the good times and bad. God is going to use us.. together. But we have to be as one for Him to do anything through us. We can’t be going in different directions. Knowing the devil will fight to rip us apart, we must stick together. For us, for Him, and for our baby girl. Life gets so hard sometimes, I feel like laying down and giving up, but I keep looking for God and that is what gives me strength to keep going. I have faith in God. I can feel His presence in our lives and because I know of His love for me, I can face each day. Sometimes when I try to picture the future and think of things I would like to have, my vision gets blurry and distorted. I cannot see where God will lead me from one day to the next. But the key is to trust that wherever it is, it’s exactly where He needs me to be. He will use me where I am. I don’t have to pick up and go somewhere to be used. I have realized that to be used, it doesn’t have to be in some big glorious way that will put me on top of the world for everyone to see. Where God uses me.. is in the little things. I don’t expect anything from Him. I know that He owes me nothing and I owe Him my life. So I have to lay it down at His feet daily, and surrender to His will in my life. I cannot hold anything back from Him. It’s all His. “all I’ve got, all I am, all my dreams, all my plans.. I’m holding back, I’m holding nothing back from You. I surrender it all, I lay it before You, for all of my days, I give You the glory. My heart and my soul, I give You control.”
Pray, Seek, Listen, Do, and try not to fall. But if you do, let Him help you back up.